Coding: JavaScript is kicking my ass

I'm pretty uncomfortable right now. 

I just finished learning about functions in javascript and I feel like I don't know it well enough to do it, and now it's time for a challenge on codecademy. These are hard, there's no guidance, you're only given what the code should do and left to do it on your own devices. I actually saw it was a challenge and decided I had to stop. I set my goals too high for this week. i was supposed to be several sections ahead by now. 

I got distracted and wasted time on facebook today, arguing with people I don't need to argue with, reading things I don't need to read. I'm feeling like this isn't something I'm capable of anymore. I worry that I'm gonna hit a wall and suddenly I won't be able to go any further. I worry that I've hit the wall. I feel like I'm making too many mistakes to recover from. 

Knowing that this is the moment I need to double down and work harder makes me wanna do it less. Knowing that I may never be good enough to use this in any real fashion is on the forefront of my mind. 

I do this often. I get excited and then find something difficult and give up. and I'm gonna fight that feeling, but right now, that feeling is gonna win for a little bit. 

I didn't accomplish several things I should have already, my to do list somehow remains full of work. And that's gigantically disheartening. As much of the world seems to be these days. 

What to do? What to do...

We'll find out tomorrow.